Saturday, 26 January 2008
Long time since i last blogged.. Many things have happened and i am so so tired now.. hope everything will end soon :(
As usual, tutorials undone and i keep wanting to sleep.. its like i cannot be bothered to do work anymore, which is very bad.. just wanna do CNY stuff, get it over and done with.. haiz i duno what to say about the situation now, its like neither good nor bad.
2 weeks or so have passed? or izit just one week? lost count.. every week seems like months to me.. i just want everyday to pass quickly, and next week, it will probably be CNY everyday.. i duno what does the councillors feel about it, i do feel worried though like whether things can be done on time.. but somehow i feel quite calm about how things are going now.. even though most ppl tell me that their feeling abt CNY is quite bad.. ahhh well, can't really explain why i am feeling so serene.. maybe i felt that i alr did my best.. its up to the sub-comm ICs to make things happen i guess. Well, i did what i could to make them do things way beforehand.. but no one can sense the urgency so.. ahh whatever i guess. getting whiny so shall not talk about it..
had jts! juniors make the whole event a success la.. i was half-dead by the time my stuff ended.. well i was more energetic when i reached the glass house.. hmmm then cam whore cam whore and den sit down and stone. i tried my best to get everyone to play something.. but i dun really like it when ppl start complaining about how boring a game can get or when there are many disagreements among the ppl.. it was SIAN and more SIAN when everyone started doing their own things.. even Sean gave up so.. no comments. it also kinda sucked when ppl expect me to be the one to get the atmosphere hyped up and stuff, like to take charge of things that night. ahh.. nvm, no one understands that i need to take the backseat sometimes.. i am feeling tired of leading and leading over and over again. No one can take it, esp me during this period.. haiz and i am getting really vulgar recently, i must try to control myself, to be more discipline..
hmmm, i have this funny feeling again. i realised that i still cannot get over some issues.. guess i could only be mmmhm about it and just see what god has arranged for me.. wishing to be invisible sometimes.. so that i dun have to face this world, and i can do everything that i want to.. even a short 15 min of invisibility is good enough.. but of coz, not possible..
okie nvm, i am getting random.. i miss everything that has made my life happy in one way or another.. and i am grateful that at least, life isn't that unfair for me.. hope my CNY is a success..
As usual, tutorials undone and i keep wanting to sleep.. its like i cannot be bothered to do work anymore, which is very bad.. just wanna do CNY stuff, get it over and done with.. haiz i duno what to say about the situation now, its like neither good nor bad.
2 weeks or so have passed? or izit just one week? lost count.. every week seems like months to me.. i just want everyday to pass quickly, and next week, it will probably be CNY everyday.. i duno what does the councillors feel about it, i do feel worried though like whether things can be done on time.. but somehow i feel quite calm about how things are going now.. even though most ppl tell me that their feeling abt CNY is quite bad.. ahhh well, can't really explain why i am feeling so serene.. maybe i felt that i alr did my best.. its up to the sub-comm ICs to make things happen i guess. Well, i did what i could to make them do things way beforehand.. but no one can sense the urgency so.. ahh whatever i guess. getting whiny so shall not talk about it..
had jts! juniors make the whole event a success la.. i was half-dead by the time my stuff ended.. well i was more energetic when i reached the glass house.. hmmm then cam whore cam whore and den sit down and stone. i tried my best to get everyone to play something.. but i dun really like it when ppl start complaining about how boring a game can get or when there are many disagreements among the ppl.. it was SIAN and more SIAN when everyone started doing their own things.. even Sean gave up so.. no comments. it also kinda sucked when ppl expect me to be the one to get the atmosphere hyped up and stuff, like to take charge of things that night. ahh.. nvm, no one understands that i need to take the backseat sometimes.. i am feeling tired of leading and leading over and over again. No one can take it, esp me during this period.. haiz and i am getting really vulgar recently, i must try to control myself, to be more discipline..
hmmm, i have this funny feeling again. i realised that i still cannot get over some issues.. guess i could only be mmmhm about it and just see what god has arranged for me.. wishing to be invisible sometimes.. so that i dun have to face this world, and i can do everything that i want to.. even a short 15 min of invisibility is good enough.. but of coz, not possible..
okie nvm, i am getting random.. i miss everything that has made my life happy in one way or another.. and i am grateful that at least, life isn't that unfair for me.. hope my CNY is a success..
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