Tuesday, 15 January 2008
today is a suckiest day ever i ever had in 2008. woke up late and 15 points!
went to school in taxi and taxi fare is bloody $25 from bishan. WTF. JAM LIKE SAI. jam all the way from my house to hwachong can. fuck the bloody road. %$&%^*#$%$#^. Sat in the taxi and start thinking how screwed i would be in time to come. homework undone, teachers screaming after me to finish up my stuff.. FUCK THAT and CNY.. FUCK.
reached chem lab feeling abit shuang.. saw ionic equilibrium tutorial on visualizer and i didn't receive any shit since orientation 2nd week. meijun passed me the stack of stuff she collected for me. looks quite thin, den Mr Chan tried to go through some questions with us.. haiz halfway thru, i realised how much stuff i need to copy and understand for my chem lecture notes. Feeling really fucked up by the morning jam and also the homework shit, and ppl come stress me with money, make up bio prac and other shit.. and i started crying.. like everything just keeps coming to me and i feel damn suffocated.. what a nice day to start off with in the first place... DAMN THIS WHOLE SHIT. i hate to cry in front of so many ppl and let them see the weak side of me. but i couldn't control myself.. haiz.
went to maths lecture with red eyes and red nose and have to hide here and there to make sure that ppl duno i cried. haiz, and maths lecture, LISTEN BIG. UNDERSTAND AH.. just meng copy.. fuck man.
feel like screwing everyone who rushes me for homework or anything. ALL GO EAT SHIT, ALL FULL OF CRAP. PLS BE MORE UNDERSTANDING, PLS.. i know as a councillor i shud not enjoy any special rights but damn this period when i need more support and teachers to understand better. I know i have not catch up with the work.. BUT U REALLY THINK I NEVER TRY TO ASK AROUND IZIT. 1 day to find out what i missed in 2 weeks.. POSSIBLE.. HAIZ.
anyone who tries to tok about homework = crying for me. sucks.. i am getting more emotional once again.. just hope i can stop being a crybaby and be stronger. AND WAKE UP ON TIME. i can't describe i pissed i am with everything around me..
ppl who gave encouragement, thanks, i understand you all are concerned and there for me when i need help but sorry, as if i really can rely on anyone now.. not emotionally coz everyone will be freaked out and i am not comfortable to let ppl see me breakdown.. not studies when i find it hard to ask my classmates about it, FUCK, maybe its all down to pride or wadever shit.. it is just the fucking feeling to not mafun others..
I WAN A BREAK, I DESERVE A BREAK, BUT I CAN'T HAVE ONE. I suggest anyone who has any encounter with me for anything to be careful if you dun wan to get screwed by me for no reason. CNY SUB COMM ICS.. prepare for the asshole and fucking bitch to come!
went to school in taxi and taxi fare is bloody $25 from bishan. WTF. JAM LIKE SAI. jam all the way from my house to hwachong can. fuck the bloody road. %$&%^*#$%$#^. Sat in the taxi and start thinking how screwed i would be in time to come. homework undone, teachers screaming after me to finish up my stuff.. FUCK THAT and CNY.. FUCK.
reached chem lab feeling abit shuang.. saw ionic equilibrium tutorial on visualizer and i didn't receive any shit since orientation 2nd week. meijun passed me the stack of stuff she collected for me. looks quite thin, den Mr Chan tried to go through some questions with us.. haiz halfway thru, i realised how much stuff i need to copy and understand for my chem lecture notes. Feeling really fucked up by the morning jam and also the homework shit, and ppl come stress me with money, make up bio prac and other shit.. and i started crying.. like everything just keeps coming to me and i feel damn suffocated.. what a nice day to start off with in the first place... DAMN THIS WHOLE SHIT. i hate to cry in front of so many ppl and let them see the weak side of me. but i couldn't control myself.. haiz.
went to maths lecture with red eyes and red nose and have to hide here and there to make sure that ppl duno i cried. haiz, and maths lecture, LISTEN BIG. UNDERSTAND AH.. just meng copy.. fuck man.
feel like screwing everyone who rushes me for homework or anything. ALL GO EAT SHIT, ALL FULL OF CRAP. PLS BE MORE UNDERSTANDING, PLS.. i know as a councillor i shud not enjoy any special rights but damn this period when i need more support and teachers to understand better. I know i have not catch up with the work.. BUT U REALLY THINK I NEVER TRY TO ASK AROUND IZIT. 1 day to find out what i missed in 2 weeks.. POSSIBLE.. HAIZ.
anyone who tries to tok about homework = crying for me. sucks.. i am getting more emotional once again.. just hope i can stop being a crybaby and be stronger. AND WAKE UP ON TIME. i can't describe i pissed i am with everything around me..
ppl who gave encouragement, thanks, i understand you all are concerned and there for me when i need help but sorry, as if i really can rely on anyone now.. not emotionally coz everyone will be freaked out and i am not comfortable to let ppl see me breakdown.. not studies when i find it hard to ask my classmates about it, FUCK, maybe its all down to pride or wadever shit.. it is just the fucking feeling to not mafun others..
I WAN A BREAK, I DESERVE A BREAK, BUT I CAN'T HAVE ONE. I suggest anyone who has any encounter with me for anything to be careful if you dun wan to get screwed by me for no reason. CNY SUB COMM ICS.. prepare for the asshole and fucking bitch to come!
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