Sunday, 22 July 2007
♥ BAH
staring at the gene expression tutorial for like hours..
OMG i realise i am unclear of many many concepts. WTF am i doing during lectures man. i just read some of the entries that i have written last time. they brought back alot of memories.. i was just wondering am i suffering or having a great time in Hwa Chong? I guess the suffering part outweighs the happy moments. at least this is what i felt.
I have no idea why am i slacking so much. i duno how to express that stupid feeling lingering in my heart.. and the voice that kept telling me to study and do tutorials but my physical self refused to comply to its demand. WTH is wrong with me. i tink i a seriously screwed inside out. i tink it is probably becoz of the inferiority i felt in hwachong that makes me dun wanna study anymore. i am very very very inconfident of myself. VERY :'( i am afraid of making any decisions because it might face very serious consequences. and i duno how to answer to them, i hav no courage to face any setbacks anymore..
I think i am still quite normal. or am i getting depression soon. i doubt i am abnormal coz all along i am quite strong i guess..
OMG i realise i am unclear of many many concepts. WTF am i doing during lectures man. i just read some of the entries that i have written last time. they brought back alot of memories.. i was just wondering am i suffering or having a great time in Hwa Chong? I guess the suffering part outweighs the happy moments. at least this is what i felt.
I have no idea why am i slacking so much. i duno how to express that stupid feeling lingering in my heart.. and the voice that kept telling me to study and do tutorials but my physical self refused to comply to its demand. WTH is wrong with me. i tink i a seriously screwed inside out. i tink it is probably becoz of the inferiority i felt in hwachong that makes me dun wanna study anymore. i am very very very inconfident of myself. VERY :'( i am afraid of making any decisions because it might face very serious consequences. and i duno how to answer to them, i hav no courage to face any setbacks anymore..
I think i am still quite normal. or am i getting depression soon. i doubt i am abnormal coz all along i am quite strong i guess..
12:45
