Saturday, 21 July 2007
♥ a long week
okie. here i am again.
it has been a really long week, and hopefully the last week for cheering events. well, the last cheering event ended off with a very bad note.. had some conflict with the high school councillors.. i duno la, i felt tat it was partly our fault lor, i tried very hard to make sure that we dun offend the high school councillors so that we can establish a good relationship with them and the juniors can have a betta time after we pass down lor..
i dun understand why we are one hwachong but not a cohesive unit? den why merge in the first place la.. haiz. i just felt tat jiinshiuan kinda made it worst by quarreling with them. it is like the problems can be solved if we all can trash it out calmly.. i duno wad to do when the situation became like tense.. i just walked away and i apologised to the person after tat.. i hope i am doing the right thing.. i dun hate them actually.. even though they kaopei us.. coz i think there are some misunderstandings la.. and guys are usually more hot-tempered.. if we tell them nicely they wud have understood.. dun have to like argue with them to such an extent that both sides feel unhappy.. haiz, i duno la, i wanna tok to jiinshiuan but i duno how to tell her that the way she speaks really offend ppl very easily.. her usage of words are slightly more harsh.. maybe that is why i dun really think we two can work very well together? well we can still be frens though.. but working styles really different la..
" u are either happy or pissed whenever i see you.. why ah? " someone said.
i have been thinking abt this question.. i guess these 2 emotions are what most people show in school? haiz.. i guess i am just a superficial freak bah.. becoz when someone comes and ask me if i am truely happy/pissed and ask me to say the truth, i wud have cried...
i always felt like crying when anyone tried to ask me if i am really feeling ok when i am emotionally unstable.. i duno if i am touched or izit i am just too upset that my eyes started tearing.. nvm..
it is like after so long.. i finally managed to tok to him like a friend.. i just find it super awkward to tok to him coz it is like it will be quite random and we have nothing to tok about in the first place.. i felt good after the very very very short chat session though.. i have been trying to dao him as much as possible so that i dun have to feel awkward.. it is like we are friends but i am behaving like we are not frens anymore.. haiz.. it is all wrong!
it has been a really long week, and hopefully the last week for cheering events. well, the last cheering event ended off with a very bad note.. had some conflict with the high school councillors.. i duno la, i felt tat it was partly our fault lor, i tried very hard to make sure that we dun offend the high school councillors so that we can establish a good relationship with them and the juniors can have a betta time after we pass down lor..
i dun understand why we are one hwachong but not a cohesive unit? den why merge in the first place la.. haiz. i just felt tat jiinshiuan kinda made it worst by quarreling with them. it is like the problems can be solved if we all can trash it out calmly.. i duno wad to do when the situation became like tense.. i just walked away and i apologised to the person after tat.. i hope i am doing the right thing.. i dun hate them actually.. even though they kaopei us.. coz i think there are some misunderstandings la.. and guys are usually more hot-tempered.. if we tell them nicely they wud have understood.. dun have to like argue with them to such an extent that both sides feel unhappy.. haiz, i duno la, i wanna tok to jiinshiuan but i duno how to tell her that the way she speaks really offend ppl very easily.. her usage of words are slightly more harsh.. maybe that is why i dun really think we two can work very well together? well we can still be frens though.. but working styles really different la..
" u are either happy or pissed whenever i see you.. why ah? " someone said.
i have been thinking abt this question.. i guess these 2 emotions are what most people show in school? haiz.. i guess i am just a superficial freak bah.. becoz when someone comes and ask me if i am truely happy/pissed and ask me to say the truth, i wud have cried...
i always felt like crying when anyone tried to ask me if i am really feeling ok when i am emotionally unstable.. i duno if i am touched or izit i am just too upset that my eyes started tearing.. nvm..
it is like after so long.. i finally managed to tok to him like a friend.. i just find it super awkward to tok to him coz it is like it will be quite random and we have nothing to tok about in the first place.. i felt good after the very very very short chat session though.. i have been trying to dao him as much as possible so that i dun have to feel awkward.. it is like we are friends but i am behaving like we are not frens anymore.. haiz.. it is all wrong!
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