Sunday, 15 July 2007
♥ stress and angry
haiz.. had been feeling moody today becoz of all the shit that i have to do.
i felt that maybe i cannot be a councillor.. i am not fit to be one.
i am too stupid
i get stressed up far too easily
i can't get things done properly
i dun have a meticulous mind
i procastinate
i duno how to communicate well
i can't lead
i can't cope well
i suck as a person
i really felt very lost and i am feeling really really upset like recently.. there are so many things to be done. prom, ecaco and maf. and so many shit that are going on. i duno how to express how shitty i feel, i duno how to tell anyone coz it doesn't sound the way i feel it. it ended up sounding less than what i am feeling.
my internet connection is screwed up and my brother isn't around. i duno anything about internet. i really felt very bad.. i keep wanting to cry but can't. or maybe i did, with a few drops of tears and no more...
i really hate to be the cheer ic.
i really hate everything tat i am doing
i really hate myself
and i hate it because i noe no matter how much i hate it i still have to do it.
many things are unsettled, if anything screws up i will get screwed.
my tutorials and academic stuff. if miss claire is collecting, i am prepared to be scolded by her.
everything just sucks to the core now. they suck big time.
i am just totally depressed inside out. maybe it is nite time tats why i start to emo.
but i guess, it is not.
it is almost 12 now and i got almost nothing done.
i am really afraid of whats coming tmr.
i am feeling blank now. like not feeling anything.
i noe i am sad bt i just dun feel the same anymore.
izit adapting or i am just inhuman.
i should stop blogging now since i dun feel the need to continue this irrelevant shit.. i hate myself for whatever decisions that i have made for the past 6 months.. because not only have i regretted, i am affected by these decisions and experiencing the aftermath now.
i felt that maybe i cannot be a councillor.. i am not fit to be one.
i am too stupid
i get stressed up far too easily
i can't get things done properly
i dun have a meticulous mind
i procastinate
i duno how to communicate well
i can't lead
i can't cope well
i suck as a person
i really felt very lost and i am feeling really really upset like recently.. there are so many things to be done. prom, ecaco and maf. and so many shit that are going on. i duno how to express how shitty i feel, i duno how to tell anyone coz it doesn't sound the way i feel it. it ended up sounding less than what i am feeling.
my internet connection is screwed up and my brother isn't around. i duno anything about internet. i really felt very bad.. i keep wanting to cry but can't. or maybe i did, with a few drops of tears and no more...
i really hate to be the cheer ic.
i really hate everything tat i am doing
i really hate myself
and i hate it because i noe no matter how much i hate it i still have to do it.
many things are unsettled, if anything screws up i will get screwed.
my tutorials and academic stuff. if miss claire is collecting, i am prepared to be scolded by her.
everything just sucks to the core now. they suck big time.
i am just totally depressed inside out. maybe it is nite time tats why i start to emo.
but i guess, it is not.
it is almost 12 now and i got almost nothing done.
i am really afraid of whats coming tmr.
i am feeling blank now. like not feeling anything.
i noe i am sad bt i just dun feel the same anymore.
izit adapting or i am just inhuman.
i should stop blogging now since i dun feel the need to continue this irrelevant shit.. i hate myself for whatever decisions that i have made for the past 6 months.. because not only have i regretted, i am affected by these decisions and experiencing the aftermath now.
23:31
