Wednesday, 19 December 2007
♥ tired
haiz. duno wad to say. just felt that everything is screwed.
I was hopeful and den one second later, everything just went out of control again. I almost cried (i teared though) when i heard about the news. It just sucks that CNY has to be on the 6th of feb and o1 lasts for 2 long weeks.. & o1 is considered more important than CNY. (which is true in the school + council context so TOO BAD)
I am not so sure if we are on task. Mr Rem feels that we are, probably becoz i gave him the impression that i am still in control and things have worked out pretty well so far - not many conflicts, constant updates and yaadayaada. Or probably becoz he felt i am capable enough to handle CNY myself without much help from the teachers. Haiz. be it i am too pessimistic or starting to lose faith in everything i do, i still felt that things are still as bad even though more details have been worked out and the ICs are working on improving their initial ideas. To me, everything is just not prepared well enough. Can't blame the ICs coz o1 worksessions are long and tiring and even i myself can't take it and had to slp early and wake up earlier to do work.
Haiz. i am just disappointed that datelines are always not met. Izit really too much to ask for? Everyone told me okie, they can get this done tonight and blah blah blah, but when i check my email, nothing is there.. I am really tired from nagging at them and getting them to have more sense of urgency. o1 is urgent i dun deny that, but hello, they are half done and we have not started. o1 has no citygate if anyone doesn't realise it by now. So what if MAF is a success, that doesn't mean that CNY will be equally successful.
Well, i am getting tired and sick too, as in literally feeling sick. Hope that somebody can just hold my hand and tell me that he/she has settled all my worries for me. But that would never happen.
Haiz talk about things going strange. Things are really going super strange. I duno how to describe the feeling, its just like i duno what is in his mind now and i duno what he feels about it. Probably i am too sensitive but i am really bothered by this awkwardness becoz of all ppl, he is the few ppl that i wan to be good friends with. 我找不回以前的感觉了:( it is just quite sad that things are on this track. everything feels further away from me, things that i wan by my side/to be with me are alot further for me to grab.
Sighhs..Its so wrong..
I was hopeful and den one second later, everything just went out of control again. I almost cried (i teared though) when i heard about the news. It just sucks that CNY has to be on the 6th of feb and o1 lasts for 2 long weeks.. & o1 is considered more important than CNY. (which is true in the school + council context so TOO BAD)
I am not so sure if we are on task. Mr Rem feels that we are, probably becoz i gave him the impression that i am still in control and things have worked out pretty well so far - not many conflicts, constant updates and yaadayaada. Or probably becoz he felt i am capable enough to handle CNY myself without much help from the teachers. Haiz. be it i am too pessimistic or starting to lose faith in everything i do, i still felt that things are still as bad even though more details have been worked out and the ICs are working on improving their initial ideas. To me, everything is just not prepared well enough. Can't blame the ICs coz o1 worksessions are long and tiring and even i myself can't take it and had to slp early and wake up earlier to do work.
Haiz. i am just disappointed that datelines are always not met. Izit really too much to ask for? Everyone told me okie, they can get this done tonight and blah blah blah, but when i check my email, nothing is there.. I am really tired from nagging at them and getting them to have more sense of urgency. o1 is urgent i dun deny that, but hello, they are half done and we have not started. o1 has no citygate if anyone doesn't realise it by now. So what if MAF is a success, that doesn't mean that CNY will be equally successful.
Well, i am getting tired and sick too, as in literally feeling sick. Hope that somebody can just hold my hand and tell me that he/she has settled all my worries for me. But that would never happen.
Haiz talk about things going strange. Things are really going super strange. I duno how to describe the feeling, its just like i duno what is in his mind now and i duno what he feels about it. Probably i am too sensitive but i am really bothered by this awkwardness becoz of all ppl, he is the few ppl that i wan to be good friends with. 我找不回以前的感觉了:( it is just quite sad that things are on this track. everything feels further away from me, things that i wan by my side/to be with me are alot further for me to grab.
Sighhs..Its so wrong..
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