Wednesday, 30 January 2008
♥ happiness dun last
happiness dun last. for me especially. my mood today went downhill since morning..
REALLY LOVE 07OG14! you guys really really rock! i love the organiser! YAY.
Then it was bio lecture
Then maths tutorial
Then maths lecture
Then break
Then CT session where we watch the short firm made by Boo Junfeng.
Then CNY worksession which was where the main bulk of my unhappiness came about.
First, it was the starting time of worksession. 245pm, 15 min after our dismissal from the audi. Maybe everyone expected me to give them half an hour to eat and change and rest. But i didn't. To compensate for that, i decided to not touch food and water and will not rest till all the informal worksessions ended.. well, i have to punish myself doubly for "punishing" others unnecessarily right?
Looking at the progress of each comm today.. with shortage of manpower and everyone so tired and hungry.. worksession is really crap today. Knowing that there is high possibility of press coverage during CNY is not helping either.. i am really afraid that decor comm cannot pull it off.. went to toilet and cried after de-briefing so that i could relieve myself from the stress and disappointment. Somehow today, i managed to suppress my emo-ness in the sense that i didn't cry when people showed concern to me (i usually would break down). My skills in controlling tears have honed to almost perfection, not sure i should praise myself or wad.
I have been asking myself some questions since i made my birthday wish yesterday morning.. Haiz, but i guess.. it is not possible that my wish will happen afterall.. i feel really crappy.. period.
REALLY LOVE 07OG14! you guys really really rock! i love the organiser! YAY.
Then it was bio lecture
Then maths tutorial
Then maths lecture
Then break
Then CT session where we watch the short firm made by Boo Junfeng.
Then CNY worksession which was where the main bulk of my unhappiness came about.
First, it was the starting time of worksession. 245pm, 15 min after our dismissal from the audi. Maybe everyone expected me to give them half an hour to eat and change and rest. But i didn't. To compensate for that, i decided to not touch food and water and will not rest till all the informal worksessions ended.. well, i have to punish myself doubly for "punishing" others unnecessarily right?
Looking at the progress of each comm today.. with shortage of manpower and everyone so tired and hungry.. worksession is really crap today. Knowing that there is high possibility of press coverage during CNY is not helping either.. i am really afraid that decor comm cannot pull it off.. went to toilet and cried after de-briefing so that i could relieve myself from the stress and disappointment. Somehow today, i managed to suppress my emo-ness in the sense that i didn't cry when people showed concern to me (i usually would break down). My skills in controlling tears have honed to almost perfection, not sure i should praise myself or wad.
I have been asking myself some questions since i made my birthday wish yesterday morning.. Haiz, but i guess.. it is not possible that my wish will happen afterall.. i feel really crappy.. period.
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