Sunday, 6 January 2008
♥ tired
i am feeling slightly emo after thinking about the amount of work i have not done, and how many promises that i have made and i didn't manage to realise them..
It has been a fun afternoon, learning all the dances, sweating out like hell.. venting all the frustrations and worries that i had initially.. but i sprained my ankle again.. which is a bad sign i guess..
haiz, i tink stress has really got to me.. i am getting real crazy mood swings once again, and of coz signals to show i am stress. I really hate o1 now... for taking so much of my time, for making life messier for me. of coz, this excludes my OG3 and 07OG14.
I am getting more and more sian about council work.. i need a break, i fuckingly need a break.. feels like crying but somehow the tears welled up in my eyes and i refused to let it out.
Life is all about choices and if i can choose now, i would choose to die in the least painful manner, like just slp to death. I feel pointless living, when so many things are disappointing me, working against favour for me. You can say i can't overcome challenges or i prefer to avoid it, or i am a coward, but i dun really care. Even then, i dun have the courage to die.
At the end of the day.. i noe i can't make it. Anymore.
It has been a fun afternoon, learning all the dances, sweating out like hell.. venting all the frustrations and worries that i had initially.. but i sprained my ankle again.. which is a bad sign i guess..
haiz, i tink stress has really got to me.. i am getting real crazy mood swings once again, and of coz signals to show i am stress. I really hate o1 now... for taking so much of my time, for making life messier for me. of coz, this excludes my OG3 and 07OG14.
I am getting more and more sian about council work.. i need a break, i fuckingly need a break.. feels like crying but somehow the tears welled up in my eyes and i refused to let it out.
Life is all about choices and if i can choose now, i would choose to die in the least painful manner, like just slp to death. I feel pointless living, when so many things are disappointing me, working against favour for me. You can say i can't overcome challenges or i prefer to avoid it, or i am a coward, but i dun really care. Even then, i dun have the courage to die.
At the end of the day.. i noe i can't make it. Anymore.
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