Thursday, 6 March 2008
♥ LIFE SUCKS
ahh life sucks terribly :(
I feel so god damn tired everyday and i just want to slp for like 10 hours everyday to compensate for the slp debt for the past 1 year. blocks is like in 1 weeks time and i freaking still trying to finish up tutorials. I BLOODY CAN'T FINISH TUTORIALS, which is damn crappy and i am damn angry with myself for being so inefficient. LIKE WTH, i want to do well in blocks but my attitude seriously sucks and I lack the motivation to work harder even though i get like so freaking stressed up in school when i see everyone mugging and i haven even started.
Damn this thing and i have been missing all the MAD practices when xinyi and ngehwee turned up for the past 2 sessions.. which gives me no excuse for ponning practices coz apparently i should be free and have no council work and i have to attend practices. BUT I JUST FREAKING PON THEM COZ I WANT TO COMPLETE ME TUTORIALS AND CATCH UP WITH MY STUDIES. i just suck la, that i am damn selfish and i am freaking stupid.
okie i can't be bothered abt myself anymore coz i am incorrigible. no one can cure my laziness and my lack of drive to work hard and earn something good for myself because somehow for me the amt of work done is not proportionate to the results that i get coz i fucking screw up during tests coz i dun freaking understand the questions and i dun freaking answer the questions properly and i am freaking tired of all these rubbish from myself.
BLAHH i am screwing off to complete my GV part 1 essays. I am really pissed with everything that is around me.. including what i see, what i feel and what i do.
school sucks and its true. i am waiting for the day when i can take OCP everyday and go home and mug my ass out coz i am freaking tired of schooling, studying, cca-ing all at the same time. I need to have lesser committment (and thank god i didn't have H3 or get attached to some MP coz i freaking screwed the interview) and yah, i am a lousy asshole and i wonder why i put in so much effort in council and am so dedicated when freaking 60 points just puts down everything that i did/contributed and get like so many unhappiness out of it. I dun deny i had good times and made good frens as well and learn many many new skills. but its just me. i am pessismistic.
i have many many things that i am unhappy with. but i just can't seem to type out/express it well such that people can understand. and some very personal issues that i had i can't write it out as well coz this is a public thing. damn this shit. and i hate myself from hiding stuff from ppl because i dun wan them to change impression of me, i hate it too coz ppl duno me well. ayee i am just damn complex i noe.
nvm this is a random entry.
I feel so god damn tired everyday and i just want to slp for like 10 hours everyday to compensate for the slp debt for the past 1 year. blocks is like in 1 weeks time and i freaking still trying to finish up tutorials. I BLOODY CAN'T FINISH TUTORIALS, which is damn crappy and i am damn angry with myself for being so inefficient. LIKE WTH, i want to do well in blocks but my attitude seriously sucks and I lack the motivation to work harder even though i get like so freaking stressed up in school when i see everyone mugging and i haven even started.
Damn this thing and i have been missing all the MAD practices when xinyi and ngehwee turned up for the past 2 sessions.. which gives me no excuse for ponning practices coz apparently i should be free and have no council work and i have to attend practices. BUT I JUST FREAKING PON THEM COZ I WANT TO COMPLETE ME TUTORIALS AND CATCH UP WITH MY STUDIES. i just suck la, that i am damn selfish and i am freaking stupid.
okie i can't be bothered abt myself anymore coz i am incorrigible. no one can cure my laziness and my lack of drive to work hard and earn something good for myself because somehow for me the amt of work done is not proportionate to the results that i get coz i fucking screw up during tests coz i dun freaking understand the questions and i dun freaking answer the questions properly and i am freaking tired of all these rubbish from myself.
BLAHH i am screwing off to complete my GV part 1 essays. I am really pissed with everything that is around me.. including what i see, what i feel and what i do.
school sucks and its true. i am waiting for the day when i can take OCP everyday and go home and mug my ass out coz i am freaking tired of schooling, studying, cca-ing all at the same time. I need to have lesser committment (and thank god i didn't have H3 or get attached to some MP coz i freaking screwed the interview) and yah, i am a lousy asshole and i wonder why i put in so much effort in council and am so dedicated when freaking 60 points just puts down everything that i did/contributed and get like so many unhappiness out of it. I dun deny i had good times and made good frens as well and learn many many new skills. but its just me. i am pessismistic.
i have many many things that i am unhappy with. but i just can't seem to type out/express it well such that people can understand. and some very personal issues that i had i can't write it out as well coz this is a public thing. damn this shit. and i hate myself from hiding stuff from ppl because i dun wan them to change impression of me, i hate it too coz ppl duno me well. ayee i am just damn complex i noe.
nvm this is a random entry.
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