Sunday, 11 May 2008
♥ attached
i am kinda very attached to the 34th council, which makes me cry/teared almost every song session and stepping down item practice. i duno if anyone feels that i am a crybaby but seriously i am not. i have never cried so much over the same thing again and again.. everytime i sing the songs, i would think of all the things 34th had gone through for the past 1 year and also all the hardship that i encountered during my term. I wouldn't say that i am the most dedicated and committed to council but i am definitely one of the few who put council over everything else, or rather it is an obligation which has turned into a habit for me..
during GM, i cried once again and i was rather glad that i stood beside JY during the song.. he offered his shoulders for me to cry on which i thought was rather sweet and something that he would never do. so i felt rather touched by his actions. he is really my best korkor in hwachong. bleah he is the only one anyway >< junjie too.. for wanting to console me but duno how to express himself.. and i thank everyone who wanted to or have offered me their hugs.. which goes to show that people really cared and i really appreciated that.
34th woosh :)
this is also the first time after so long that i feel totally dao-ed and excluded in dance. i really suck for not performing well for full run today. i feel so totally screwed inside out. but no one bothered. i did so many things wrongly blatantly and i duno if anyone realises. i feel like i am invisible and realise how insensitive people can be, its not like i haven been attending practices, its not like i haven put in effort to clean up the steps but why is everything happening to me.. no pants.. uninformed about plans.. feeling totally helpless but everyone just cares about themselves.. i am just gladful that ngehwee is around.. i love her alot seriously :) and the little thing that jia da did to try to cheer me up, suhui too though they duno why i am feeling so upset. hah. :)
alright.. time to slp.. 34th rocks.
during GM, i cried once again and i was rather glad that i stood beside JY during the song.. he offered his shoulders for me to cry on which i thought was rather sweet and something that he would never do. so i felt rather touched by his actions. he is really my best korkor in hwachong. bleah he is the only one anyway >< junjie too.. for wanting to console me but duno how to express himself.. and i thank everyone who wanted to or have offered me their hugs.. which goes to show that people really cared and i really appreciated that.
34th woosh :)
this is also the first time after so long that i feel totally dao-ed and excluded in dance. i really suck for not performing well for full run today. i feel so totally screwed inside out. but no one bothered. i did so many things wrongly blatantly and i duno if anyone realises. i feel like i am invisible and realise how insensitive people can be, its not like i haven been attending practices, its not like i haven put in effort to clean up the steps but why is everything happening to me.. no pants.. uninformed about plans.. feeling totally helpless but everyone just cares about themselves.. i am just gladful that ngehwee is around.. i love her alot seriously :) and the little thing that jia da did to try to cheer me up, suhui too though they duno why i am feeling so upset. hah. :)
alright.. time to slp.. 34th rocks.
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