Saturday, 3 May 2008
♥ dance. cheer. life
i love talking to weiguo and junjie for nuts! haha, its really super random that we started talking about LIFE, like what the hell life is all about, about how everyone of us had lived for the past 17/18 years, all the interesting things that occurred during our childhood days.. <3
woke up damn early for dance practice. dance night is nearing.. haiz, i kinda can't wait for it to be over because i am rather drained out already. sometimes i really feel damn jealous and disappointed that i am not given more chances to be the lead dancer. i know i can't expect people to put me in front or give me more exclusive choreo to perform because i haven been going for practices since my council term starts and i may not be as good as the others since then. Haiz, maybe its just hard for me to accept the fact that i was once the lead and now i am like other normal dancers. From Anderson to Hwa Chong, i have experienced many disappointment and also having to go through the process of letting people decide whether you are capable enough or not (since no one noes what i have been doing in secondary school) through stupid q&a and from what i do. Well, i might have proven myself to be capable of dancing, but again.. most of the time, its not about the techniques and experience i have, factors like luck, looks, "hotness" level, stage presence and performance quality have to come into play as well. Its just too bad that no one thinks that i possess any of those quality mentioned i guess. i should live with it that i can never be a good dancer even when i put in my 100% during practice to improve myself.
i noe that Jared made some sense when he talked to me this afternoon. but i just couldn't control my temper when i start to talk about cheering matters. i understand and had once thought through all the concerns raised by Jared. But i seriously believe that we should change according to how the situation in Hwa Chong is like now and not follow traditions directionlessly, i mean so what if there have been 34 batches of CHIC? there is 34 batches of PJ as well but now we are merging it with art directors right? COME ON, PLS BE MORE FLEXIBLE and stop having the inertia to change. And i am not saying that faculty heads MUST lead cheers, the 4 CCA PROs can do the job of CHIC as well and like what jiinshiuan said, for cheering its the more the merrier. having more than 1 partner also help to increase the confidence level in cheering right.
and yes, the damage is done. i have said what i felt about cheering and i don't see anything wrong with speaking the truth. you can disagree with me for all i care, BUT YOU CANNOT DENY THAT I AM ALSO TRYING TO HELP TO IMPROVE THE WELFARE OF COUNCILLORS AS WELL. if our batch is so screwed for cheering, the coming batches may face the same problems, which is highly possible seeing that both the newly picked CHICs are extremely unhappy to get the screwed job. blame me for all you want, for saying all the politically incorrect things about cheering. i mean WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO HIDE MAN, IF ITS NOT GOOD, ITS NOT. The more you want to challenge me, the more challenged you will feel about this whole shit. SO SRY THAT I AM SUCH A DIRECT PERSON WITH A SUPER FLAWED CHARACTER.. AND OH, I KNOW I SUCK TO THE CORE BUT i am determined to let myself be heard because i don't want future batches to suffer what js and myself have. I don't give a damn abt the past, this is the problem that i see happening right before my eyes and i am trying my best to salvage it. WHAT MAKES YOU THINK THAT ONLY OUR BATCH IS FACING SUCH PROBLEMS. I AM SRY THAT I DUN HAVE THAT PERSERVERENCE TO KEEP TRYING AND GETTING PEOPLE TO CHEER. YOU ARE JUST SUPER SUAY THAT YOU PUT SUCH A EMO PERSON TO DO THIS JOB THAT REQUIRES LOTSA OPTIMISM. okie, end of story. if you think that i am just pinpointing and blaming you for every single thing that i have suffered than you are super wrong. I am not so horendous to pick a quarrel with you for no good reason and to bicker with you over stupid things. and yes, like i have mentioned, i tend to get overly agitated when it comes to cheering so pardon me for all the caps i used.
and life. life talk. 3may2008. 5:30pm-8:00pm. weiguo. junjie. weiting. PUBCO HEAD. PUBCO QM. ECACO CHIC. I thank god for letting me eat dinner with them or else, i will be fuming to death after that heated talk with Jared. sometimes i really wonder why is life so hard and why are we working so hard just to earn a living. wadever we learn now is FEI. only life lessons that we have experienced so far are truly beneficial to us in the future. weiguo's childhood stories are super cute.. yepp, i rarely had such a talk with anyone for damn long. the feeling of being able to trust that they would be able to understand how i feel, the feeling of finally finding people who truly don't mind talking about such stuff comfortably.. even though i spent quite some time.. but i tink i am glad that i have spent it with awesome people, at awesome bukit timah market :) yes, life rocks when such things come to you! we kinda made a pact via sms that if we have time next time, we can continue from where we ended. i tink by that time, we would have grown a lil more, experienced more stuff and would have thought through many many more things. YES, I LOVE WEIGUO AND JUNJIE! :D
woke up damn early for dance practice. dance night is nearing.. haiz, i kinda can't wait for it to be over because i am rather drained out already. sometimes i really feel damn jealous and disappointed that i am not given more chances to be the lead dancer. i know i can't expect people to put me in front or give me more exclusive choreo to perform because i haven been going for practices since my council term starts and i may not be as good as the others since then. Haiz, maybe its just hard for me to accept the fact that i was once the lead and now i am like other normal dancers. From Anderson to Hwa Chong, i have experienced many disappointment and also having to go through the process of letting people decide whether you are capable enough or not (since no one noes what i have been doing in secondary school) through stupid q&a and from what i do. Well, i might have proven myself to be capable of dancing, but again.. most of the time, its not about the techniques and experience i have, factors like luck, looks, "hotness" level, stage presence and performance quality have to come into play as well. Its just too bad that no one thinks that i possess any of those quality mentioned i guess. i should live with it that i can never be a good dancer even when i put in my 100% during practice to improve myself.
i noe that Jared made some sense when he talked to me this afternoon. but i just couldn't control my temper when i start to talk about cheering matters. i understand and had once thought through all the concerns raised by Jared. But i seriously believe that we should change according to how the situation in Hwa Chong is like now and not follow traditions directionlessly, i mean so what if there have been 34 batches of CHIC? there is 34 batches of PJ as well but now we are merging it with art directors right? COME ON, PLS BE MORE FLEXIBLE and stop having the inertia to change. And i am not saying that faculty heads MUST lead cheers, the 4 CCA PROs can do the job of CHIC as well and like what jiinshiuan said, for cheering its the more the merrier. having more than 1 partner also help to increase the confidence level in cheering right.
and yes, the damage is done. i have said what i felt about cheering and i don't see anything wrong with speaking the truth. you can disagree with me for all i care, BUT YOU CANNOT DENY THAT I AM ALSO TRYING TO HELP TO IMPROVE THE WELFARE OF COUNCILLORS AS WELL. if our batch is so screwed for cheering, the coming batches may face the same problems, which is highly possible seeing that both the newly picked CHICs are extremely unhappy to get the screwed job. blame me for all you want, for saying all the politically incorrect things about cheering. i mean WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO HIDE MAN, IF ITS NOT GOOD, ITS NOT. The more you want to challenge me, the more challenged you will feel about this whole shit. SO SRY THAT I AM SUCH A DIRECT PERSON WITH A SUPER FLAWED CHARACTER.. AND OH, I KNOW I SUCK TO THE CORE BUT i am determined to let myself be heard because i don't want future batches to suffer what js and myself have. I don't give a damn abt the past, this is the problem that i see happening right before my eyes and i am trying my best to salvage it. WHAT MAKES YOU THINK THAT ONLY OUR BATCH IS FACING SUCH PROBLEMS. I AM SRY THAT I DUN HAVE THAT PERSERVERENCE TO KEEP TRYING AND GETTING PEOPLE TO CHEER. YOU ARE JUST SUPER SUAY THAT YOU PUT SUCH A EMO PERSON TO DO THIS JOB THAT REQUIRES LOTSA OPTIMISM. okie, end of story. if you think that i am just pinpointing and blaming you for every single thing that i have suffered than you are super wrong. I am not so horendous to pick a quarrel with you for no good reason and to bicker with you over stupid things. and yes, like i have mentioned, i tend to get overly agitated when it comes to cheering so pardon me for all the caps i used.
and life. life talk. 3may2008. 5:30pm-8:00pm. weiguo. junjie. weiting. PUBCO HEAD. PUBCO QM. ECACO CHIC. I thank god for letting me eat dinner with them or else, i will be fuming to death after that heated talk with Jared. sometimes i really wonder why is life so hard and why are we working so hard just to earn a living. wadever we learn now is FEI. only life lessons that we have experienced so far are truly beneficial to us in the future. weiguo's childhood stories are super cute.. yepp, i rarely had such a talk with anyone for damn long. the feeling of being able to trust that they would be able to understand how i feel, the feeling of finally finding people who truly don't mind talking about such stuff comfortably.. even though i spent quite some time.. but i tink i am glad that i have spent it with awesome people, at awesome bukit timah market :) yes, life rocks when such things come to you! we kinda made a pact via sms that if we have time next time, we can continue from where we ended. i tink by that time, we would have grown a lil more, experienced more stuff and would have thought through many many more things. YES, I LOVE WEIGUO AND JUNJIE! :D
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