Tuesday, 30 September 2008
♥ 190th post
I am kinda losing my patience with many things that are happening around me. My mood changes like the weather nowadays and there are some especially disturbing moments, which left me disappointed and helpless.
Just like yesterday, a kind-hearted, helpful and harmless teacher who sincerely wished to help was being rejected by this big meanie, whom i sweared i wouldn't talk to today and forgetfully broke my promise. Mrs Chong just wanted Brian to see her because she was afraid that he might take the bad results too hard on himself. (He missed remedials, skip lectures etc) Well, apparently the truth of Brian's behaviour was because he didn't think he needs her help and he doesn't seem to respect her anyway. That was what i inferred when i told him that Mrs Chong wanted to see him and his reply was a shockingly nonchalent "I know" and he continued his chat with his friends and acted like the conversation didn't exist. All along i thought that he was sensitive to other people's feelings and his reply totally ripped off his good image in my mind. Not that he cared anyway.
I seriously start to doubt everything that people tell me nowadays. Not that i want to be disbelieving but the truth is so jaring that I just didn't want to believe what i have heard. Man can be selfish and i don't know why is there a need to lie. If you have done it, say that you have. Why do you need to tell others that you didn't and try convincing the rest that you didn't as well? What do you want to achieve? The make-believe image?
When teachers are teaching values to us, do you all bother? Obviously not coz you all chose to do something else to spend that oh-so-precious 5 min in your lifetime. And those bitches behind me who kept bitching at every lecturer in audi today deserve a kick in their ass, a slap on their faces and a punch at their stomachs for being so unappreciative. May you U your chem paper.
IT doesn't take alot of effort to be more sensitive to other people's feelings. It doesn't take alot of efforts to be nicer. There are times to do what is right and do it because you are sinful. I am starting to like some people better because they are selfless, understanding and most importantly, true to others.
Maybe because of these ugly sides of human that i actually feel that i like being alone sometimes. To draw a line that separates me from the rest like the Berlin Wall or 180 degree parallel between north and south korea.
Just like yesterday, a kind-hearted, helpful and harmless teacher who sincerely wished to help was being rejected by this big meanie, whom i sweared i wouldn't talk to today and forgetfully broke my promise. Mrs Chong just wanted Brian to see her because she was afraid that he might take the bad results too hard on himself. (He missed remedials, skip lectures etc) Well, apparently the truth of Brian's behaviour was because he didn't think he needs her help and he doesn't seem to respect her anyway. That was what i inferred when i told him that Mrs Chong wanted to see him and his reply was a shockingly nonchalent "I know" and he continued his chat with his friends and acted like the conversation didn't exist. All along i thought that he was sensitive to other people's feelings and his reply totally ripped off his good image in my mind. Not that he cared anyway.
I seriously start to doubt everything that people tell me nowadays. Not that i want to be disbelieving but the truth is so jaring that I just didn't want to believe what i have heard. Man can be selfish and i don't know why is there a need to lie. If you have done it, say that you have. Why do you need to tell others that you didn't and try convincing the rest that you didn't as well? What do you want to achieve? The make-believe image?
When teachers are teaching values to us, do you all bother? Obviously not coz you all chose to do something else to spend that oh-so-precious 5 min in your lifetime. And those bitches behind me who kept bitching at every lecturer in audi today deserve a kick in their ass, a slap on their faces and a punch at their stomachs for being so unappreciative. May you U your chem paper.
IT doesn't take alot of effort to be more sensitive to other people's feelings. It doesn't take alot of efforts to be nicer. There are times to do what is right and do it because you are sinful. I am starting to like some people better because they are selfless, understanding and most importantly, true to others.
Maybe because of these ugly sides of human that i actually feel that i like being alone sometimes. To draw a line that separates me from the rest like the Berlin Wall or 180 degree parallel between north and south korea.
21:15
