Thursday, 25 September 2008
♥ :(
Econs - S
Math - S
GP - S
Chem P3 - S
I have been on an "ASS" streak since BT1 this year. I don't know why I just can't pass any subject despite studying harder this time. The people around me did much better than me. I saw tears, bad moods, disappointed eyebrows and of course happy, elated faces for all those who did superbly well this time round. While observing, i actually started reflecting about my own performance and i really do feel ashamed.
I know it is not the time to indulge in self-pity and self-denial.
I put on a smile when facing my friends and classmates, I was in control of my emotions and felt that it wasn't a big deal to fail subjects, I told myself that things are not going to change even if i cry till my eyeballs drop out, I thought i have come to terms with my bad results since i don't even feel the urge to cry when i saw the marks i was getting. But as i was typing this, i could feel tears welling up in my eyes, i could feel the heart ache, i could feel everything that i normally would when i fail my tests. I feel so void of real feelings in school today, like i was faking my way through and i did it so naturally.
It is just a bad bad day for me and the rewards today are very countable.
1) steamboat with ECACO. Although i wasn't really in a talking mood, i am glad i still could laugh at things that are funny and i feel for this family.
2) talking to kheex, contrast being talking to him in the morning - i was feeling excited, talking to him after getting chem paper - i feel distorted, talking to him during ECACO steamboat - I feel relieved.
3) math remedial. i tyco-ly answered a question posted by Mr Ng correctly and i felt a sense of achievement when i helped Sean with math. I kinda understood alil more as to why many people say that he is charming. It is just in him kinda thing.
Alright, i am feeling hungry now, common for people like me who can bao ying bao shi when i don't feel happy.
Byebye world. I am off doing my GP body paragraph writing and maybe econs if i feel like it.
Math - S
GP - S
Chem P3 - S
I have been on an "ASS" streak since BT1 this year. I don't know why I just can't pass any subject despite studying harder this time. The people around me did much better than me. I saw tears, bad moods, disappointed eyebrows and of course happy, elated faces for all those who did superbly well this time round. While observing, i actually started reflecting about my own performance and i really do feel ashamed.
I know it is not the time to indulge in self-pity and self-denial.
I put on a smile when facing my friends and classmates, I was in control of my emotions and felt that it wasn't a big deal to fail subjects, I told myself that things are not going to change even if i cry till my eyeballs drop out, I thought i have come to terms with my bad results since i don't even feel the urge to cry when i saw the marks i was getting. But as i was typing this, i could feel tears welling up in my eyes, i could feel the heart ache, i could feel everything that i normally would when i fail my tests. I feel so void of real feelings in school today, like i was faking my way through and i did it so naturally.
It is just a bad bad day for me and the rewards today are very countable.
1) steamboat with ECACO. Although i wasn't really in a talking mood, i am glad i still could laugh at things that are funny and i feel for this family.
2) talking to kheex, contrast being talking to him in the morning - i was feeling excited, talking to him after getting chem paper - i feel distorted, talking to him during ECACO steamboat - I feel relieved.
3) math remedial. i tyco-ly answered a question posted by Mr Ng correctly and i felt a sense of achievement when i helped Sean with math. I kinda understood alil more as to why many people say that he is charming. It is just in him kinda thing.
Alright, i am feeling hungry now, common for people like me who can bao ying bao shi when i don't feel happy.
Byebye world. I am off doing my GP body paragraph writing and maybe econs if i feel like it.
23:21
