Friday, 12 December 2008
♥ AFTER AN EMO DAY
yeah hello, long time since i last blogged. anyway changed a new blogskin coz all the swf files in the prev blogskin exceeded the designer's bandwidth and i can't upload swf files after trying for umpteen times. so, the best thing to do is to say goodbye to all the bee, cloud and dog and try for a new skin. oh well, it was hard to pick good skins coz most of the designs dun appeal to me. i tried searching for wang dong cheng, anime, scenery skins but the results were pretty bad. maybe i should just type in depress and i would get things that i want, hahaha, considering i was in a rather bad mood yesterday. :(
yesterday was just impatience and frustration of duno what. i couldn't be bothered to answer questions from my brother which i deemed pointless to reply. and guess what, i totally forgot that 11th dec was my mother's birthday. i didn't even do anything for her. i was so freaking screwed and getting led around by stupid emotions was bad enough. try editing blogskin and by accidentally pressing a button, everything disappeared. yeah, i sweared for a few minutes before i get back to work on the skin again.
and i realise i really like er zuo ju zhi wen. er zuo ju er wen was bad. there is this section that allows me to embed youtube videos and the two things that came into my mind was the jiro and adriel scene as well as the rain scene which starred joe chen and adriel lin. all the videos are sad. I think i can vaguely rmb myself crying when i first watched the drama. i was very touched and affected by the emotions displayed and also by the things said and the songs played. I think most of my favourited songs came from er zuo ju. I really think that this is the best drama i have ever watched. haha or maybe because i could relate to it myself. O.o oh well. pretend i never said that.
anyway, i finally wrote in to fullerton hotel to ask for an intern. emailed the EHL body to clarify questions that suayu asked. Talking to suayu makes me feel quite inferior. haha, like i get to know what he wans to do and what he believes in as we talk about our hospitality dreams. My dream is super simplistic and like xiong wu da zhi liddat. It seems that money is probably the biggest impeding stone for both of us. i think i dun mind planning for a "catch-mas-selemat" quest if i am really desperate and thanks to suayu for giving me this inspiration. $1 million dollars. sounds good huh?
yibing told me something as well, which probably snowballed the sadness i was feeling for the whole day. but i am happy for her la. haha. glad i talked to jinyang too, he seems to be able to pinpoint all the feelings that i might be experiencing, he always can. but i damn sad nia, he going to penang for one week! RAR, which means no talking to JY :( haha maybe i can find someone else to replace him for the moment, maybe kheex? biqi? yibing? yeah i would noe when the time comes. read from kheex blog about being dependent on frens, i think i am also such person bah, i dun really noe what would happen if i dun have super nice and zhai godbrothers and all my girls. And when i start to think through what JY said to me, i realise i may not even have a bff in hwachong. maybe kahliang is the closest to being one? oh yeah, i must really say that i am really grateful for him pls, helping me out during the A level period and helping me with the stupid quest too. HAHAHHA. though we didn't win anything in the end, the biggest takeaway for the game wasn't interaction with my siblings but the friendship with kahliang! haha i tink i sound like a weirdo in my own world ><
anyway dinner@MOF with 4706. maybe i should call up and reserve seats. oh well, i can't be sure if it will be a good dinner where everyone chats and enjoys each other's company. but i know that i would definitely treasure the time together, coz i haven met up with most of my classmates for almost 2 years. i was damn busy and i think everyone noes it. haha.
hope that the time i am waiting for will come soon. :)
yesterday was just impatience and frustration of duno what. i couldn't be bothered to answer questions from my brother which i deemed pointless to reply. and guess what, i totally forgot that 11th dec was my mother's birthday. i didn't even do anything for her. i was so freaking screwed and getting led around by stupid emotions was bad enough. try editing blogskin and by accidentally pressing a button, everything disappeared. yeah, i sweared for a few minutes before i get back to work on the skin again.
and i realise i really like er zuo ju zhi wen. er zuo ju er wen was bad. there is this section that allows me to embed youtube videos and the two things that came into my mind was the jiro and adriel scene as well as the rain scene which starred joe chen and adriel lin. all the videos are sad. I think i can vaguely rmb myself crying when i first watched the drama. i was very touched and affected by the emotions displayed and also by the things said and the songs played. I think most of my favourited songs came from er zuo ju. I really think that this is the best drama i have ever watched. haha or maybe because i could relate to it myself. O.o oh well. pretend i never said that.
anyway, i finally wrote in to fullerton hotel to ask for an intern. emailed the EHL body to clarify questions that suayu asked. Talking to suayu makes me feel quite inferior. haha, like i get to know what he wans to do and what he believes in as we talk about our hospitality dreams. My dream is super simplistic and like xiong wu da zhi liddat. It seems that money is probably the biggest impeding stone for both of us. i think i dun mind planning for a "catch-mas-selemat" quest if i am really desperate and thanks to suayu for giving me this inspiration. $1 million dollars. sounds good huh?
yibing told me something as well, which probably snowballed the sadness i was feeling for the whole day. but i am happy for her la. haha. glad i talked to jinyang too, he seems to be able to pinpoint all the feelings that i might be experiencing, he always can. but i damn sad nia, he going to penang for one week! RAR, which means no talking to JY :( haha maybe i can find someone else to replace him for the moment, maybe kheex? biqi? yibing? yeah i would noe when the time comes. read from kheex blog about being dependent on frens, i think i am also such person bah, i dun really noe what would happen if i dun have super nice and zhai godbrothers and all my girls. And when i start to think through what JY said to me, i realise i may not even have a bff in hwachong. maybe kahliang is the closest to being one? oh yeah, i must really say that i am really grateful for him pls, helping me out during the A level period and helping me with the stupid quest too. HAHAHHA. though we didn't win anything in the end, the biggest takeaway for the game wasn't interaction with my siblings but the friendship with kahliang! haha i tink i sound like a weirdo in my own world ><
anyway dinner@MOF with 4706. maybe i should call up and reserve seats. oh well, i can't be sure if it will be a good dinner where everyone chats and enjoys each other's company. but i know that i would definitely treasure the time together, coz i haven met up with most of my classmates for almost 2 years. i was damn busy and i think everyone noes it. haha.
hope that the time i am waiting for will come soon. :)
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